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So… I have no words to describe how I feel.

Well, yeah, I do. I’m totally scared. You know, in the play we’re doing in the Drama Class there’s this guy that has to be totally scared. I think I feel like he must feels in the play.

Why is that? Too much drama for a day. And there’s one single word in my head repeating itself “fake” again and again. It’s almost crazy. It’s driving me mad, everything is driving me mad. I want the truth, I want all of it, all, no exceptions. I’m sick of the lies, I’m sick of pretending. Here I am, what the heck is going on? It’s driving me mad.

 In other news, I finished High School today. I’m happy because I’ll start university now, but I’m feeling kind of nostalgic too. And I have this bad feeling that something bad is going to happen, oh well, I just have to get used to it, hoping that is one of thosetimes that it’s not true.

I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep now, I’ve been shaking all day, in the morning because of a fight I had with my math teacher, and it didn’t turn out so well… but, oh, who cares, I’m done with that now.

Have you ever felt like in a scary movie? Not the parodies, the real scary, like, you’re there sitting, and you know the assasin is going out to kill someone, or you’re there waiting for something to happen, because you know it’s going to happen, something’s going to happen. I feel like that, everything points that something’s going to happen soon, and it’s scary. Or maybe I’m just crazy, who knows? Maybe my math teacher drove me mad or something today. I only know that I don’t want to care anymore, it’s in the past now, why should I care?

I have two ideas for drawings that shall be accomplished now that I’m on vacations (well, not exactly, I have to work to pay my scholarship) but I have more free time now, so I’ll draw more. Even now, that I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep.

On other news, the newest LOST chapter was so great! (Only because of the Black Smoke, I hated what happened to Alex, she didn’t deserve it). D. Gray-Man is getting quite interesting, and I think my OC (Krea) is a Crystal type… weird, I never thought of it until I read the chapter last Friday. And Naruto, I’m going to kill Tobi (somehow) if he keeps telling that his story is true, I only want him to say it!

See ya in another life, brotha

Hi there.

Well, just posting again. And I have several reflections to share this time.

First of all, I was assigned a homework about the “Emo”. And I spent some time researching about the ideas of the emos. You know? I found very interesting stuff, but the thing that hit me the most was nothing about the emo themselves. It was teh people talking about them. There are a lot of people here in the internet that have terrible opinions of the emo. First of all, some of these people, know the origins of the movement, and so they say that the actual emo people are just a fashion.

Just like in any other movement, there are people calling themselves emo (or punk, or dark, etc) and that they are not truly passionate with the ideology. This happens in any movement, and I think that the emo are just liek any other movement, but I don’t understand why people bull them so much. Some of the emo are suicidal, but not all of them. They are very emotional indeed, and that’s a way of living, a way of thinking too, I don’t get why people hate so much that they are like that, is not like the emo are really changing our lives, people are taking this way too personal. That’s my conclusion.

 In another subject. I got a scholarship for college. I start in May 25th, I’m going to Miami for a week to take a course of animation. So I’ll be doing some aimated stuff during the summer before starting with the rest of my classes.

I’m almost done with High School, I jsut need to find a way of not going to the Final Exam of Math… I start the last mensual exams tomorrow, and then I’ll be done with everything else.

My second reflection is about choices. I have been thinking that every time that I decide to change my ways of living or doing some stuff, something radical changes in a way I have never expected it to. For example, like a month ago, I decided to let go some bad things that were haunting me and hurting me. I changed some attitudes at school and voila! Less than a week later I was dating this guy, and now we’re a couple. This was weird, and this happens to me every time I change choices. I just hope this was a good choice ^^

I’ll leave you now with to photos I took at school last Wednesday. The first one is my friend Ceci at our Technical Drawing class. She actually hates that class, I love it ^^ but she let me upload the photo here.

The second photo is my friend Miguel from the Theatre group. He was playing around with Liquid Nitrogen before class, and we all had a good time.

Don’t forget to go to my DeviantART to check out more crazy stuff. I’ll leave you all for now!